It’s the first five minute friday of the year! Woo! How fitting is the prompt tonight:
gonna actually attempt to do this one in five minutes, hehe.
This is the first year in a long time (lonnnng time) that I’m not going into it with a sure plan.
When I was in high school, I had plans to become a teacher;
When I was in college, I was in the process of becoming a teacher;
Then August happened. And for the first time in my life, I literally have no sense of direction about what’s “next” for me in my life.
I spent so much of my life around this one solitary plan that I never gave any other ideas much thought.
This year though, is a clean slate. And I can’t decide whether it’s more terrifying or freeing.
My usual overthinker type-A self is screaming. OMG WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WITH MY LIFE AHHHHH I NEED A PLAN.
Well, last year I learned what happens when I live by a single plan: I fall flat on my face when the plan falls apart.
There’s a small part of me that thinks this is the most exciting thing ever. While terrifying and anxious, this gives me the opportunity to try new things, explore new ideas… things I never thought I could do. It’s exhilirating knowing that I am not tied down to a plan and a certain career right now.
timer’s up and I finished! woohoo! I did wanna add one thing:
Writing this reminded me of one of my favorite verses, one that is totally relatable in this messy plan-less chapter:
“Watch closely: I am preparing something new! it’s happening now,even as I speak, and you’re about to see it. I am preparing a way through the desert;
Waters will flow where there had been none.” (Isaiah 43:19 Voice)
for the first time in a long time, I’m starting completely over. and i’m excited.
excited for the other FMF prompts to come!!