Happy FMF day! The word is: expect!
do you ever expect things to turn out one way, and they end up going the exact opposite?
Yeah. Me too.
So what do you do when your expectations and your reality don’t match up?
For me, this whole year has been centered around this very thing.
I thought i was going to graduate in December, but I didn’t.
I thought I was going to nail student teaching, but I failed miserably.
I thought I was going to become an English teacher to middle schoolers, and that fell through.
All my life expectations came crashing down around me. And to put it gently, it sucked.
I worked hard towards that goal. And it didn’t come to pass.
While now I’m in a place where I’m done grieving over it, I can’t help but wonder what my expectations for the next chapter are going to be. And moreso, if I will actually meet them.
So how do I create expectations that I can actually meet? How, after burning myself once on expecting something so specific and detailed, can I find a new goal, a new plan, and derive expectations that I know I can exceed?
I expect so much of myself. But now, I’m scared to expect anything of myself at all.